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All consuming my soul Engulfed in flames Raging through my limbs In my veins, in my blood Warm to the touch I feel the ice in my heart Piercing me through Reminding me that All these feelings are Temporary Soon to be eaten alive by my demons Inside my chest, inside my arms, Pumping through my blood And inside my head a beast I can't control Snarling vicious beast Merciless monster Whose me.

Words fall off my lips With no thoughts To the consequence A smile flickers To the edge of your lips Just for me Singing while it rains Can’t seem to contain The feelings of sunshine Building in my chest My bright eyed beauty Like endless untouched oceans Looking back at me Happy to see me Happy to see me And suddenly Deep in my empty Icey skin I felt myself Melting

Sitting still in this silence The room fills with air My head swirling with thoughts That I can’t turn off They fill inside my chest Until I want to burst I hold myself together At the edges of your words I want to be the aching in your heart Like you are in my chest Holding hostage my lungs Forgetting how to breathe Forgetting how to catch my breath

Sometimes isn’t always And sometimes isn’t enough When you try to build Yourself around another Slowly giving into whims Thinking they will pass But they never do

Splitting into pieces Carrying on because I have to Because if I stop I fear I might collapse Into this feeling Building in my chest I’m afraid it will swallow me whole Falling to my knees Realizing the ground Is only quicksand Sinking faster And before I know it I’m Pulled Under

She walks with bare feet Across damp grass Wondering if she is broken Bits of her heart Fall right out of her chest Like shards of glass No one can find All the pieces Night covers up Black eyes better Then make up Stars shine bright Even with a cloudy sky She is a star She is the moon Pale beauty, masked By storm clouds Tears glide across Bruised cheeks As she lays her head On a soft bed of grass Dark thoughts that Consume her mind Each waking moment For one moment Fade away into silence As night falls Looking up she admires The dark blues and blacks The stars yellows and whites The moons pale glow Covers the clearing Touching each

tasting the last bit of happiness slipping off tongues coated with blissful liquids Blurring visions and spinning rooms walking halls where ceilings turn into floors Thoughts engulfed in fire couch-locked in a smoking room full of characters that no one truly knows company of strangers speaking minds unfiltered keeping count the seconds that pass too slowly waiting until next time when gathering of cravings Is fixed and done with

Wandering filled halls, haunted with empty faces They move quietly like mist falling over empty fields Red eyes and trembling lips, speaking whispers They wonder where they should be going I wonder where they have been It’s the look in your eyes that I know too well Disappointment in what I couldn’t be Behind my pale face, it hurts to see She wonders why I can’t get this right It’s what’s in their heads that keeps them facing down Wondering why they aren’t happy Thinking over words, you are worthless Laughing fully when they are empty. It hurts to laugh when you feel nothing It’s the look in your

We are a sea of people Moving back and forth Going where the current takes us But we are not what they thought Lost ideas stuck at sea Never being taught How to take control We are a sea of people Lost souls looking for the shore Wondering if there was ever one But we are not what we wanted Pressure packs down each time A new punch lands in our guts They think they can change us But its not what it seems We are a sea of people Trying not to be pulled under Breathless we drown But they never come to save us We are a sea of people Who’ve lost the sight of dreams And wonder what sleep feels like We are a sea of people But you ca

I will fix it. Even if I never Seem to fix myself Hold fast my hand I’ll pull you up Onto both feet I will fix it Even if I never Seem to fix myself Stand strong on your feet Toughen up that spine You’ll need it in the end I will fix it Even if I never Seem to fix myself I put you first Before my own broken bones So please don’t tell me I’m not enough for you I will fix it Even if I never Seem to fix myself Each time I hold their hands Wipe away tears that stain They walk away brand-new Leaving behind a few more Broken bits of bone I will fix you Even though I can never figure out How to fix the cracks In my ow